Copyright Dec 2005
As she runs along the beach
Her thoughts hurt; out of reach
Her feet dig into the soft sand
She runs; she hides; her life planned
She looks out on the distant sea
Her thoughts lost; where is me?
Why do I have to live this life
The pain cuts like a knife
The buildings stand resolute
Above the beach; their silence mute
The waves crash on the shore below
Her thoughts whirl; everything slow
What would happen; she thought inside
If I just ran to the waves to hide;
If I just let them take me in
If I just let them hide my sin
What would it be like to step away
From this life that held her at bay
To stop the pain and anguish beneath
To belay the misery; internal grief
She continues to run, full speed ahead
Just one step to the right; she's dead
The waves would take her; problems gone
She would not feel the guilt; it is the norm
Why you may ask is she here
Running the beach; terror near
Wanting to end it; wanting to hide
Wanting to take relief in suicide?
Her father molested her for many years
Her father brought forward many tears
Fear was beyond mention; ever there
Back in the car; she knew no care
For she would have to continue on
Hiding, dreading; happiness gone
She would have to deal with her dad
Touching; taunting; eternally sad
For now years on the pain is still there
But now she has found others that truly care
She remembers back; the moment gone
She remembers of this time; forlorn
For if she had taken her life
She would not be a loving wife
Her kids would not be now and here
Others would live with this frightening fear
There would be no tears tonight
She would be forgotten; forever in fright
No one would know what lay beneath
The fear; the awful pain of grief
This poem would not be read to
Spreading the message of grief to you
She would be a tombstone covered in moss
Laying beneath a large wooden cross
Her life forfilled now; many years on
The pain still there, but the horror gone
She worked through what it all meant
And her father now; reported, 100 percent
This poem is inspired by a true story of a young girl (around 12 or so), running along the beach, running from a life of horror, and having to get back into the car with her father, an abuser, and her family, returning to a horror that so many know.
(((((((hugs))))))))
Whitedove
Friday, December 30, 2005
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Welcome to Whitedoves Blog
Hi there and welcome to Whitedoves Blog.
With the launch of my website at www.whitedovesnest.com, I found that there is also an interest in a blog exploring sexual abuse and recovery.
I set up Whitedoves Nest and was flabbergasted at the response and number of hits. I am a web designer/IT guru by trade and wanted to set up a professional looking site, which allowed quick updates and additions to the site.
To date I have received many poems, stories, emails, art works and other tid bits that I have put on the site with discretion. I am amazed at some of the talent and strength of both men and women out there and the response that I have received. My thoughts are also with those out there supporting people recovering from childhood sexual abuse, my strength and hopefully understanding will pass on to you.
For me, creating the website has been a tremendous exercise in overcoming fear, and adversity, giving information to others and letting others out there know that they are certainly not alone. There are many survivor sites availabe to explore, and I wanted to add my own.
Today I reported my father for sexual abuse that spanned 6 years or more. I feel a sense of victory in doing this. I know that the journey for me has been long and hard, counselling, groups, trauma, to be able to get to the point where I feel I can cope with reporting and can explore where I can go to first of all seek protection for other children and to gain a sense of justice for the childhood I endured.
I am not sure of the legal process at the moment and have spoken to police and also the Department for Childrens Services about protection for children and the avenues I can take. It has been a long time in coming and I am sure that I am to learn a lot about our legal process, both good and bad.
I hope to keep this blog updated as much as I can. I wish you the best in your journey and hope that this blog can give you a sense of understanding of the issues surrounding sexual abuse and the amazing people that can overcome this tradegy in their lives.
For more information please see my main site at www.whitedovesnest.com
Keep smilin'
Whitedove
Dec 2005
With the launch of my website at www.whitedovesnest.com, I found that there is also an interest in a blog exploring sexual abuse and recovery.
I set up Whitedoves Nest and was flabbergasted at the response and number of hits. I am a web designer/IT guru by trade and wanted to set up a professional looking site, which allowed quick updates and additions to the site.
To date I have received many poems, stories, emails, art works and other tid bits that I have put on the site with discretion. I am amazed at some of the talent and strength of both men and women out there and the response that I have received. My thoughts are also with those out there supporting people recovering from childhood sexual abuse, my strength and hopefully understanding will pass on to you.
For me, creating the website has been a tremendous exercise in overcoming fear, and adversity, giving information to others and letting others out there know that they are certainly not alone. There are many survivor sites availabe to explore, and I wanted to add my own.
Today I reported my father for sexual abuse that spanned 6 years or more. I feel a sense of victory in doing this. I know that the journey for me has been long and hard, counselling, groups, trauma, to be able to get to the point where I feel I can cope with reporting and can explore where I can go to first of all seek protection for other children and to gain a sense of justice for the childhood I endured.
I am not sure of the legal process at the moment and have spoken to police and also the Department for Childrens Services about protection for children and the avenues I can take. It has been a long time in coming and I am sure that I am to learn a lot about our legal process, both good and bad.
I hope to keep this blog updated as much as I can. I wish you the best in your journey and hope that this blog can give you a sense of understanding of the issues surrounding sexual abuse and the amazing people that can overcome this tradegy in their lives.
For more information please see my main site at www.whitedovesnest.com
Keep smilin'
Whitedove
Dec 2005
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