I am wondering how I can convey
To you, the reader of this poem
Just what is it like
To live with a monster?
I know I cannot achieve it
I know you will never know
I could sit here for years
And still you would only scratch the surface
I could tell you of the eyes that I see
I could tell you of my nightmares
And I can tell you of my scarred soul
But you could never understand
I could tell you how many years
What frightened me, and when
How I had to hide, what I had to do
And where I went to, but in the long run, you would never know
I could tell you of the incidences I remember
And of the ones I dont
I could tell you of the nights I have sat in tears
And wished that it would just go away
It is just that there is no one out there
That can help this little child
Understand why her daddy did this
And why I must now cry.
