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Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Soul to the Moonlight
Can you see it Dwelling within my soul That silent memory Hurting me internally And as I see it There trembling in its mystery I walk slowly And touch it, it burns me With a deep intensity that I run That I cry, and do not return And chose to forget its mystery And I sit down, with the flowerpots behind me And stir my teacup in the shadowed sunlight Many years later And notice my hand shaking It is the memory Resurfacing, just as I stir my tea And I forget And then as I plant the flower The following spring In the pots, the hot sun Causing beads of sweat on my forehead I notice my breath is gone Not because of the weather But the silent memory And as I watch the tv, I realise The memory does not go The memory will return And the only way to resolve it Is to show its Soul to the moonlight. Don't run from it, turn and face it. |
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Move on to
Theres a slight sound playing
That is right we were
And I was happy
Elated, full on with
Something
Like a build up
To something else
But then
I realised
That really
There was no one
In this world
That could help
Except me
There were comments
Many
When I started thinking
About it
Then I realised
How important I was
A tingle
Just how important
And it was
So simple in
The end
When before
I did not have this
So I had to let you go
So I could go forward
Into what I was thinking about
And that makes me
Cry.
Because what I had to move onto
Was me.
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Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Clear Wide
Red faces that are sliding
Eyes that behold
Ring of dolly behind the door
Straight lines that are told
Blood drops on the floor
With red and blue behind
A white face appears again
Blue lines hit the side
My hands there now touch you
As I see a part of me
A title there does show
What is sitting in front of me
And every day I see this,
Yet it all escapes my thoughts
It is just a simple click of my fingers
That shows me what I ought
So as I take a slow breath
And recount what has given me pause
Im glad Im sitting on this side
And not taken all the applause
So next time you think
That heaven has rocked the earth
Take a slight step back
And really, give it a clear wide berth
Eyes that behold
Ring of dolly behind the door
Straight lines that are told
Blood drops on the floor
With red and blue behind
A white face appears again
Blue lines hit the side
My hands there now touch you
As I see a part of me
A title there does show
What is sitting in front of me
And every day I see this,
Yet it all escapes my thoughts
It is just a simple click of my fingers
That shows me what I ought
So as I take a slow breath
And recount what has given me pause
Im glad Im sitting on this side
And not taken all the applause
So next time you think
That heaven has rocked the earth
Take a slight step back
And really, give it a clear wide berth
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Spearmint Lolly Man
The girl, sitting there near the shop
Spies at the bottom of the lolly packet
A small spearmint lolly
WOW - I have forgotten the spearmint ones
And she takes it and eats it quickly
With a smile on her face
The next girls spies the lolly in the packets
And shies away
Her heart racing
She starts to cry
She turns and runs away
Hiding, remembering
Slowly dying inside
For the lolly
Reminded her
Of Him
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Sunday, July 15, 2012
You love you
Its the monsters breath Getting slight He is trying to get at you With all his might He is trying to scare you now As he did before And here you are trying to calm and more You thought this would be easy Not as hard as this You have been given ideas To return to bliss You dont want to lay vunerable To the monsters teeth And really you know Whats lying beneath But what if he's not, that monster in disguse What if he is just a nice kind man Who wants to help as he tries It is your filter, the monsters put on Effecting you now every year on The panic you feel, is the filters glare Reminding you of the times back there All I know now, is you can escape You can keep yourself safe Not put up with his hate You have the power, deep within That little girl loves you Your protecting her from sin So here is a flower She gives you for now She lets you cry, she lets you howl She lets you shake, she lets you ball She lets you walk, she lets you crawl You have held her hand, through the worse terror yet Something 99 percent of people would rather forget You can protect her, you can get through The courage is right there Because You love You. |
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Saturday, July 07, 2012
Wind on my heart
Wind on my Heart
Wind on My Heart
Two little girls
Step one by one along the path
Followed closely behind
By their mum.
The blonde girls turn to their mum
And see in the sky a quiet wind
Pointing, they notice
Layers of lovehearts
Multicoloured
Drifting in the breeze
Held by string
And the mum does not see it
She is watching the monsters behind
Keeping their nasty
Fire, their brimstone at bay
The footpath full of grass
"The hearts are so pretty" says the little girls
Laughing and giggling
The monster from the back
Breathing words of fire
Attacking, wanting the little girls
The mother puts her arms out
Lets balance girls
On the footpath
And the little girls enjoy the sunshine
Playing games in the spectacle
Looking forward, to the brightly coloured
Fireworks
And all they feel from the
Monster
Is the Wind on My Heart
Protect your children. Let them paint and draw love hearts, rather than be abused by who abused you. Stand in between the abuser and never let them past.
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Sunday, July 01, 2012
Faith of the Heart
Getting from there to here
It's been a long time
But my time is finally near
And I can feel the change in the wind right now
Nothing's in my way
And they're not gonna hold me down no more
No they're not gonna hold me down
'Cause I've got faith of the heart
I'm going where my heart will take me
I've got faith to believe
I can do anything
I've got strength of the soul
And no one's gonna bend or break me
I can reach any star
I've got faith, I’ve got faith, faith of the heart
It's been a long night
Trying to find my way
Been through the darkness
Now I've finally have my day
And I will see my dream come alive at last
I will touch the sky
And they're not gonna hold me down no more
No they're not gonna change my mind
'Cause I've got faith of the heart
I'm going where my heart will take me
I've got faith to believe
I can do anything
I've got strength of the soul
And no one's gonna bend or break me
I can reach any star
I've got faith, faith of the heart
I've known the wind so cold, and seen the darkest days.
But now the winds I feel, are only winds of change.
I've been through the fire and I've been through the rain.
But I'll be fine.
Cause I've got faith of the heart
I'm going where my heart will take me
I've got faith to believe
I can do anything
I've got strength of the soul
And no one's gonna bend or break me
I can reach any star
I've got faith
I've got faith of the heart.
I'm going where my heart will take me.
I've got strength of the soul. And no one's gonna bend or break me.
I can reach any star. I've got faith, I've got faith, faith of the heart.
It's been a long road.
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