He wanders through the market
Shirt untucked
Red basket, choosing
Fruit and vegetables
Does he know I watch
Him and slowly write
A poem in my mind
Catching this precise
Moment
Where he looks at me
And then turns away
The memory forgotten
In the depths of his life
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Saturday, September 29, 2012
Friday, September 28, 2012
Book
If a book
Took you
Ten years to
Write
How would
You end it
Took you
Ten years to
Write
How would
You end it
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
To Write in the Sun
To Write in the Sun
The mouse runs
Darts this and that
To the darkness
Behind the tv
It smells the bait
The cheese there
It darts back
Eyeing it far away
It inches tiptoeing
Touch the wood
With the edge
Of its whiskers
SNAP
The metal bars
Come down
The other mice scream
Left alone
Others walk
See the mouse twitch
Ignore the calls
Cries
The pain it endures
No one
Misery from God
Taking its last breath
The bar rusted
Fails in spring
The mouse turns
And knaws at the wood
Other mice visit
The trap sprung
The animal wanders off
To write in the sun
The mouse runs
Darts this and that
To the darkness
Behind the tv
It smells the bait
The cheese there
It darts back
Eyeing it far away
It inches tiptoeing
Touch the wood
With the edge
Of its whiskers
SNAP
The metal bars
Come down
The other mice scream
Left alone
Others walk
See the mouse twitch
Ignore the calls
Cries
The pain it endures
No one
Misery from God
Taking its last breath
The bar rusted
Fails in spring
The mouse turns
And knaws at the wood
Other mice visit
The trap sprung
The animal wanders off
To write in the sun
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I told
The sun flashed
Across the fern
It is the same sun
I saw with it there
Awake
Mixtures fly everywhere
A wisp of brightness
Fear, dwelling
A butterfly captured
Fear
Listening to others
It is lost
The walking stick falls
I am but elsewhere
Gone
Disappointed in the salt
There is no strength
To just say your mind
And I left in silence
Across the fern
It is the same sun
I saw with it there
Awake
Mixtures fly everywhere
A wisp of brightness
Fear, dwelling
A butterfly captured
Fear
Listening to others
It is lost
The walking stick falls
I am but elsewhere
Gone
Disappointed in the salt
There is no strength
To just say your mind
And I left in silence
Horror -- Me
It was two months
That I felt of it
Just two months
And I had to leave
For a break, peace -- freedom
Why did I not see it before
In the length of my life
Should I have doubted
The loss, horrid -- dreaming
The trap, the horror, torture
That she endured
So long ago now but a mystery
How did she, survive -- live
And now escaped from the misery
A skeleton, raked leaves, dead trees
I turn and remember
What did he do, horror -- me
That I felt of it
Just two months
And I had to leave
For a break, peace -- freedom
Why did I not see it before
In the length of my life
Should I have doubted
The loss, horrid -- dreaming
The trap, the horror, torture
That she endured
So long ago now but a mystery
How did she, survive -- live
And now escaped from the misery
A skeleton, raked leaves, dead trees
I turn and remember
What did he do, horror -- me
Emily's Room
Let me walk in
And sit for a while
I know it will bother you
Can I offer a smile
Can I tell you here
Within these walls
Can I take away your nervousness
Can I talk away your falls
And there in your bun
And there in your dress
Can I tell you in the future
You will become impressed
Can I sit by your feet and
Widdle away the hours
Can I sit here and listen
As you write with your powers
And finally will you let me
Just understand your pain
Stay for a while
With nothing to gain
And then when I close the door
And leave your little room
Can you tell me your secret
Of encountering this doom
For you've impressed
This lady of two
With just your wisdom
And the soul within you.
And sit for a while
I know it will bother you
Can I offer a smile
Can I tell you here
Within these walls
Can I take away your nervousness
Can I talk away your falls
And there in your bun
And there in your dress
Can I tell you in the future
You will become impressed
Can I sit by your feet and
Widdle away the hours
Can I sit here and listen
As you write with your powers
And finally will you let me
Just understand your pain
Stay for a while
With nothing to gain
And then when I close the door
And leave your little room
Can you tell me your secret
Of encountering this doom
For you've impressed
This lady of two
With just your wisdom
And the soul within you.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
In desperation there is love
In desperation there is love
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Thursday, September 13, 2012
Would I lose this poem?
The light is bright above me
And the mirror cast in black
Unsure of where I am
Unsure of what I lack
I have been transported
Back to that day of change
The instant before my life
Became so rearranged
And if I just change this scene
Just this moment before
All my what if's are gone
Never to be known any more
Would I walk through that door
And sit down as I eat
Would I continue along
This sure and steady beat
Or would I let it take me
And wake up those again
Would I dismiss the people
That I made here now as friends?
Would I forsake this poem
For that was learnt to
Would I forget how to cope
And learn to say no to you?
For this is what I have learnt
From walking through that door
In overcoming that nightmare
That will live for me anymore
And the mirror cast in black
Unsure of where I am
Unsure of what I lack
I have been transported
Back to that day of change
The instant before my life
Became so rearranged
And if I just change this scene
Just this moment before
All my what if's are gone
Never to be known any more
Would I walk through that door
And sit down as I eat
Would I continue along
This sure and steady beat
Or would I let it take me
And wake up those again
Would I dismiss the people
That I made here now as friends?
Would I forsake this poem
For that was learnt to
Would I forget how to cope
And learn to say no to you?
For this is what I have learnt
From walking through that door
In overcoming that nightmare
That will live for me anymore
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Monday, September 10, 2012
Quiet of the Room
From the quiet of the room
She writes
A little girl in pigtales
With all her might
She is scribbling in her diary
All her dreams
She is missing out all her screams
She is protecting those with
No words
And hiding under the covers
Quite disturbed
And quietly with her pen
She writes
Its all there, as she fights
Some extra horror that she
Knows
Her tears have come to blows
She has written for hours
And no one knows
Just horror stories
That no one sees
Her tear drops as you please
But when she goes to
Hand it on
All she says is
Who cares anyway
No one will respond
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
Little Girl Remembers
The little girl lays there
Not saying a word
There is a quiet hush
She is becoming disturbed
Her mouth wants to scream
And her feet want to run
But she just stays there
Hating this fun
There is a man to the right
Standing up tall
Her mind there sitting
It is about to fall
And there in front of her
She sees a circle or two
And her mind just blank
And she has a deep breath anew
She is but young
Living in this monsters world
There to the right
The memory is becoming unfurled
And how does she cope
With this monsters awful stare
She just says "Forget it"
And the memory returns to its lair
Not saying a word
There is a quiet hush
She is becoming disturbed
Her mouth wants to scream
And her feet want to run
But she just stays there
Hating this fun
There is a man to the right
Standing up tall
Her mind there sitting
It is about to fall
And there in front of her
She sees a circle or two
And her mind just blank
And she has a deep breath anew
She is but young
Living in this monsters world
There to the right
The memory is becoming unfurled
And how does she cope
With this monsters awful stare
She just says "Forget it"
And the memory returns to its lair
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Sunday, September 02, 2012
Seasons Change
Through the winter rain
The lone leaf stood strongly still
Until the spring time
When the flowers rose
The willows made friends with birds
And the sky lit up
To tell you in soft
Reaches that life is but change
Winds it's memory
The lone leaf stood strongly still
Until the spring time
When the flowers rose
The willows made friends with birds
And the sky lit up
To tell you in soft
Reaches that life is but change
Winds it's memory
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Art,
Bird,
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