He told me to leave it
And I took it out on him
"What nonsense was this"
I thought quietly
I told others
"That guy told me to leave it"
And it did not make sense
So I left
And then understood
Why
And now I thank him
For telling me to leave
A blog exploring recovering from childhood sexual abuse
Take the journey with me.....
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Sunday, January 27, 2013
Friday, January 25, 2013
The Queens in Town
The Queens in Town
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Sunday, January 13, 2013
Ritual Abuse Conference CT USA
http://ritualabuse.us/smart-conference/
August 9 – 11, 2013
DoubleTree near
Bradley International Airport
16 Ella Grasso Turnpike
Windsor Locks, CT
Internet conference information:
http://ritualabuse.us/smart-conference/
2012 Ritual Abuse Conference CDs are now available http://ritualabuse.us/smart-conference/2012-conference/
Conference Goals
- To help stop future occurrences of ritual abuse
- To help survivors of ritual abuse
- To name the groups that have participated in alleged illegal activities
- To unite those working to stop ritual abuse
Conference Schedule
There will be a small get together, deli dinner, dessert and early registration for pre-registered attendees only, on August 10, Friday evening. The conference will be all day on Saturday August 11 and Sunday August 12. Please check our conference home page for the latest conference schedule information. Some presentations will also be recorded.
August 9 – 11, 2013
DoubleTree near
Bradley International Airport
16 Ella Grasso Turnpike
Windsor Locks, CT
Internet conference information:
http://ritualabuse.us/smart-conference/
2012 Ritual Abuse Conference CDs are now available http://ritualabuse.us/smart-conference/2012-conference/
Conference Goals
- To help stop future occurrences of ritual abuse
- To help survivors of ritual abuse
- To name the groups that have participated in alleged illegal activities
- To unite those working to stop ritual abuse
Conference Schedule
There will be a small get together, deli dinner, dessert and early registration for pre-registered attendees only, on August 10, Friday evening. The conference will be all day on Saturday August 11 and Sunday August 12. Please check our conference home page for the latest conference schedule information. Some presentations will also be recorded.
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Friday, December 21, 2012
Monday, December 17, 2012
Monday, December 10, 2012
My Seven Year Diary
A poem cataloguing the journey that is Whitedoves Nest.
She stands in purple
Risk it all
Try your local library
For these books
Walked up to the
My childhood memories
Therapy
The right touch
"Free Shipping"
While no one was watching
There is a whisper in heaven
She was busy looking
At the floor and the money
Journals; blue clouds
I watch and talk to him
My Children
And as I whisper
About this site
A few things
We thank you for the many hours
Of support and talk
A small room
You walk in -- Inspired
She stands in purple
Risk it all
Try your local library
For these books
Walked up to the
My childhood memories
Therapy
The right touch
"Free Shipping"
While no one was watching
There is a whisper in heaven
She was busy looking
At the floor and the money
Journals; blue clouds
I watch and talk to him
My Children
And as I whisper
About this site
A few things
We thank you for the many hours
Of support and talk
A small room
You walk in -- Inspired
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Wednesday, December 05, 2012
How to change
The lady in purple
Walked up to the
Telephone booth
And stepped in
There was a line
Outside
Waiting, getting impatient
In the hot weather
She closed the door
Taking refuge inside
Watching the
Dried chewing gum
Cake up the slot
Where her money
Was to go
She noticed a penny
On the floor
She turned to leave
But stopped
As the telephone rang
She heard it
Calling her in the background
She was busy looking
At the floor and the money
People outside waiting
She leaned over
And chose the change
Leaving the phone call
To the next in line.
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Saturday, December 01, 2012
Never a Smile
There in the distance
I see a tree
Here close up you
Remember the swing
I cry for I will never have
A father to be there
To see the delight
In my smile.
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Monday, November 26, 2012
"Free shipping"
"Free shipping"
Said the package
I opened it up
And saw it
And started to cry
It was my
Heart in pieces
Sewn together
With package string
Said the package
I opened it up
And saw it
And started to cry
It was my
Heart in pieces
Sewn together
With package string
Safe Willow
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Sunday, November 25, 2012
The Fish
The love heart
Told over and over
That it was a fish
So much so -- it blew bubbles
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Saturday, November 24, 2012
The Cross
I saw a note today
In the middle
Of the road
It was not a simple note
It was a cross
Like one you put
In your Aunty's birthday card
A faux I love you
But this was no
I love you
This was a cross to
Remind me
Of the terror
Of the forgotten things
And how love
Can go horribly wrong
This was where
I was abused
And they marked it
With a cross.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Your love song
A little girl lays alone
Near the sidewalk
Dirt on her face
She smiles at the passerby's
There is no tears
There is no anger
Just a smile
She turns on the radio beside her
Her only possession
And realises
It is playing her song
And she turns it up
And revels in -- her love.
Near the sidewalk
Dirt on her face
She smiles at the passerby's
There is no tears
There is no anger
Just a smile
She turns on the radio beside her
Her only possession
And realises
It is playing her song
And she turns it up
And revels in -- her love.
Monday, November 12, 2012
Prezi - But I am Your Voice by Whitedove
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Saturday, November 10, 2012
My childhood memories
My childhood memories
Silent bird calls
Creaking houses
Noises from corners
She sits
Writing
On her notepad
Whirring of the fridge
Noises, coughs, beeps
From out the back
She pauses to hear
A door closing
Footsteps
Down the hall
Walking forward
Pausing
Not scary
Hiding looking
For hiding spots
The fridge makes a noise
The birds stop
Birds flying outside
Sunlight drifts in
A deep breath
Difficult day
Eyes glinting
In the morning
Hidden she is
From his glare
He cannot see her
Under the bed
She sits there listening
Waiting
Waiting for the footsteps
To wander on down the hall
Waiting
Scared
Nothing
Surreal
Shadecloth
Shadows
Fireplace
Creaking of the walls
Silence
Humming of the fridge
Tv off
Light across the wire
It continues past the door
Into the kitchen
Where there is no noise
I wait
Wait scared surreal
Springs under the mattress
Gazing outside
Seeing no escape
Hoping for escape
Nothing there
No one there
But him
Dogs barking
In the distance
As I remember
Sitting here
My childhood memories
Silent bird calls
Creaking houses
Noises from corners
She sits
Writing
On her notepad
Whirring of the fridge
Noises, coughs, beeps
From out the back
She pauses to hear
A door closing
Footsteps
Down the hall
Walking forward
Pausing
Not scary
Hiding looking
For hiding spots
The fridge makes a noise
The birds stop
Birds flying outside
Sunlight drifts in
A deep breath
Difficult day
Eyes glinting
In the morning
Hidden she is
From his glare
He cannot see her
Under the bed
She sits there listening
Waiting
Waiting for the footsteps
To wander on down the hall
Waiting
Scared
Nothing
Surreal
Shadecloth
Shadows
Fireplace
Creaking of the walls
Silence
Humming of the fridge
Tv off
Light across the wire
It continues past the door
Into the kitchen
Where there is no noise
I wait
Wait scared surreal
Springs under the mattress
Gazing outside
Seeing no escape
Hoping for escape
Nothing there
No one there
But him
Dogs barking
In the distance
As I remember
Sitting here
My childhood memories
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Tuesday, November 06, 2012
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